| Josh: I promise I won't leave you for a slut.
Me: ... >_>
Vincent: ...
Josh: ... Again. |
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| Just got home :) damn its late/early. I spent new yrs eve morning with him! :) im in a good mood!! |
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| And I'm texting Nick, discussing limo plans with him. We need people and he told me that I should bring Alex. In fact, everyone in the limo wants me to bring him -___- And I don't want to tell them he isn't going to go with me because we aren't talking "like that" anymore... So I just tell them that he is failing English and might not come. Hey, it's not a lie. He really is.
I'm not going to tell them that he is going with Melissa if he does go... because they'll just be like 'wtf'.
Nick just told me to buy an Alex a ticket... AKA Our "Loop Hole". I wanted to do that for Alex and ask him also but... I know that things won't happen that way. he won't come with us. and I just remembered why everyone in the limo is telling me to bring him. They saw how we were on the day of Otari's birthday last month when we all hung out and Alex came to join us. =/
ugh. That was so far away... But yeah. what to do..?
Everyone's going to find out eventually when they go to prom and see him with Melissa. So I guess everything will just unfold by itself. Until then, I'll try to get Sirajul to ditch his other plans to go to prom with me. lol and if that doesn't work, I'll save Richie for last. If he starts to talk to me more, maybe.
chances are, I'll be going alone. But that's fine :) |
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| It's a pain to type because I have a paper cut on my pinky and a bruise on my thumb from handball. FML.
Man. I've been a bit out of character. And IDK if I want to do anything about it. Maybe I want to fight with Alex. Maybe I want to push him away. Ugh. I can't talk to him like this. This isn't the Stella he knows. I don't want him to see me like this. I haven't been ME.
This is... more Melissa than Stella. And I guess I have it in me to be like her. But I also have self control. It's just, this time I really do like him. What can I do? I hate reading her aways/statuses. I wish she would just move far away. Or he would just go back to how he was in January. But of course, I gotta focus on what's happening NOW. No "what if's". Whatever. |
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